Why. Oh why. Do I have a heart?
Why. Oh why. Do I have a heart?
If there's a god, he put me on Earth to torment me.
The girl, the infamous one, who I was in love with for years before she dated my best friends and then on a rebound got really close to me knowing full well how I felt about her even though she had no intentions of being anything mroe than cuddle/kissing buddies with me...
I saw her yesterday.
I couldn't sleep. It's almost 5 in the morning. I can't stop thinking about her again.
I hate her almost as much as I love her. Damn it.
She's not better than me, she just knows I think she is.
The girl, the infamous one, who I was in love with for years before she dated my best friends and then on a rebound got really close to me knowing full well how I felt about her even though she had no intentions of being anything mroe than cuddle/kissing buddies with me...
I saw her yesterday.
I couldn't sleep. It's almost 5 in the morning. I can't stop thinking about her again.
I hate her almost as much as I love her. Damn it.
She's not better than me, she just knows I think she is.
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The toying was a year ago... since then we've had major fights, and distanced ourselves a lot. Since then we've been slowly trying to fix our friendship... we talk maybe once a week, breifly, if that, and hang out once a month, for an hour or so. Last year when the shit went down we talked on the p hone 3 times a day, every day, I saw her every day, and I spent the night 3 times a week.
She's gone through a lot and is making new friends and getting on with her life, which I should be doing, but I'm pathetic, so I sit here and make fucking blogs about something that happened a year ago.
She's 2 years away from having a higher education, with the ability to buy her own house, and I'm sure by then she'll have fallen in love and started a family, cuz it's in her nature to do so.
I'll still be a pathetic idiot wishing she gave a shit.
I'm done with this thread.
She's gone through a lot and is making new friends and getting on with her life, which I should be doing, but I'm pathetic, so I sit here and make fucking blogs about something that happened a year ago.
She's 2 years away from having a higher education, with the ability to buy her own house, and I'm sure by then she'll have fallen in love and started a family, cuz it's in her nature to do so.
I'll still be a pathetic idiot wishing she gave a shit.
I'm done with this thread.
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been in the same situation as you before man. it took me a long, long, time to get over the girl...but i noticed when i would go a really long time without seeing her it just got easier and easier to forget her. when i would see her i would get sucked in to having her on my mind all the time
so STAY AWAY!
so STAY AWAY!
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yeah, love sucks, emotions suck, girls suck, i know how you feel, i wish i didn't care either, but i do, and i need a girl soon that is worth my time or i'm gonna go insane, i'm gettin sick of masturbating, i'm gonna break up with my hand, it's starting to get annoying, thankfully I have 2
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