Why. Oh why. Do I have a heart?

$ayzak · Post by **$ayzak** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 5:49 am

If there's a god, he put me on Earth to torment me.

The girl, the infamous one, who I was in love with for years before she dated my best friends and then on a rebound got really close to me knowing full well how I felt about her even though she had no intentions of being anything mroe than cuddle/kissing buddies with me...

I saw her yesterday.

I couldn't sleep. It's almost 5 in the morning. I can't stop thinking about her again.

I hate her almost as much as I love her. Damn it.

She's not better than me, she just knows I think she is.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 7:13 am

Sorry.

Shiny · Post by **Shiny** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 4:49 pm

you been wanderin round in my head again

mystoneybaby · Post by **mystoneybaby** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 5:24 pm

well she is a jerk. tell her that. say, " look. i like you, you know that. so stop toying with me. it hurts. "

$ayzak · Post by **$ayzak** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 5:42 pm

She's not toying with me (anymore), she just wanted company. She does value me as a friend...

argh, I don't even remember making this stupid thread.

mystoneybaby · Post by **mystoneybaby** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 5:48 pm

if she toys with you once she'll most likely do it again. next time bush her off dont' let her do it. Does she really value you as a friend? or an aquaintence with some emotional/physical benifits?

$ayzak · Post by **$ayzak** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 6:01 pm

The toying was a year ago... since then we've had major fights, and distanced ourselves a lot. Since then we've been slowly trying to fix our friendship... we talk maybe once a week, breifly, if that, and hang out once a month, for an hour or so. Last year when the shit went down we talked on the p hone 3 times a day, every day, I saw her every day, and I spent the night 3 times a week.

She's gone through a lot and is making new friends and getting on with her life, which I should be doing, but I'm pathetic, so I sit here and make fucking blogs about something that happened a year ago.

She's 2 years away from having a higher education, with the ability to buy her own house, and I'm sure by then she'll have fallen in love and started a family, cuz it's in her nature to do so.

I'll still be a pathetic idiot wishing she gave a shit.

I'm done with this thread.

mystoneybaby · Post by **mystoneybaby** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 6:05 pm

alrighty.it'd probabally be alittle healthier to finish with her before you finish with this thread.
you should make this your permanent love trouble thread. it has the perfect title for it and everything.
consider it.

nixhex · Post by **nixhex** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 7:54 pm

you should rape her

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 7:56 pm

...................................................there are no insults for such dredgery.

hydropoNICK · Post by **hydropoNICK** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 8:55 pm

been in the same situation as you before man. it took me a long, long, time to get over the girl...but i noticed when i would go a really long time without seeing her it just got easier and easier to forget her. when i would see her i would get sucked in to having her on my mind all the time
so STAY AWAY!

Hostile_Apostle311 · Post by **Hostile_Apostle311** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 12:21 am

"I'm just a sexy boy. (Sexy boooy) I'm notcha boy-toy. (Boy tooooy) I'm just a sexy boy."

CatCity · Post by **CatCity** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 12:24 am

just masturbate and go to bed

Vibe Merchant · Post by **Vibe Merchant** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 2:57 am

Sam, words from the wise.

Shiny · Post by **Shiny** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 3:57 am

Samsupnthismothafuka wrote:just masturbate and go to bed

hahaha

$ayzak · Post by **$ayzak** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 5:37 am

girls are not hard to come by. I got some kisses just earlier tonight.

I have no girl problems at all, really.

My only problem is that I have a heart. I'd really like to get rid of it. Then I can just use girls and never feel bad about it.

I'm kidding.

Broken Side · Post by **Broken Side** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 12:39 pm

yeah, love sucks, emotions suck, girls suck, i know how you feel, i wish i didn't care either, but i do, and i need a girl soon that is worth my time or i'm gonna go insane, i'm gettin sick of masturbating, i'm gonna break up with my hand, it's starting to get annoying, thankfully I have 2

CollapsingVisionary · Fri Jul 08, 2005 11:43 am

sayzak wrote:girls are not hard to come by. I got some kisses just earlier tonight.

I have no girl problems at all, really.

My only problem is that (edit) I can just use girls and never feel bad about it.

hmmm... thats more like it.